Well, in 7 hours I will be boarding our flight to Miami, and then on sunday I will be boarding our ship. We found out that some of our friends from California will be on the same cruise!! We were really excited to hear that.
Although, I have to tell that I have never in my life experience something so hard as saying goodbye to my baby boy. I have cried this whole week over it, thinking I will cry it all out by the time I say goodbye, but it didn't happen that way. I had explained to Dawson for a couple of days that i was going to be going "buh bye" and he was going to be staying with grandma. I know he is in the best hands possible, and i'm not worried about him...it's me who feels, "not whole" and has had anxiety attacks since I left him. I am completely out of my comfort zone and have been so unsure of myself since. I can't relax or focus on anything. My stomach feels like its an never ending pit of pain. All of this sounds awful and it really is. I will get over it I'm sure, but I'm already counting down until I see him again.
My mother in law was so good and understanding today. She has called me and let me know everything about what they're doing and told me to call as much as i want. it made me feel so good to know that. She didn't rush me into saying goodbye and really understood why I wanted to say goodbye. I wanted Dawson to understand that mom was leaving, instead of just rushing off and hoping for the best. I know he doesn't understand much, but i think he understood that because of how he's acted for his grandma. He will have the time of his life and really get to bond with his grandparents, which is so important. I'm very lucky to have such good in-laws.
It's always harder on the mom :-) So until we get back, I hope everyone enjoys there week!
Although, I have to tell that I have never in my life experience something so hard as saying goodbye to my baby boy. I have cried this whole week over it, thinking I will cry it all out by the time I say goodbye, but it didn't happen that way. I had explained to Dawson for a couple of days that i was going to be going "buh bye" and he was going to be staying with grandma. I know he is in the best hands possible, and i'm not worried about him...it's me who feels, "not whole" and has had anxiety attacks since I left him. I am completely out of my comfort zone and have been so unsure of myself since. I can't relax or focus on anything. My stomach feels like its an never ending pit of pain. All of this sounds awful and it really is. I will get over it I'm sure, but I'm already counting down until I see him again.
My mother in law was so good and understanding today. She has called me and let me know everything about what they're doing and told me to call as much as i want. it made me feel so good to know that. She didn't rush me into saying goodbye and really understood why I wanted to say goodbye. I wanted Dawson to understand that mom was leaving, instead of just rushing off and hoping for the best. I know he doesn't understand much, but i think he understood that because of how he's acted for his grandma. He will have the time of his life and really get to bond with his grandparents, which is so important. I'm very lucky to have such good in-laws.
It's always harder on the mom :-) So until we get back, I hope everyone enjoys there week!
