A little of our life

Well, for New Years we were up in Holden. J.D. had 4 beds ordered so we made a trip up to Holden to get started. There was too much snow to go up on the mountain, so we just turned it into a little vacation. It was so fun because we got to see baby Kyson again. We were so tired that we completely missed out on the New Year's celebration. We were in bed by 10. Normally we would have done our New Year's tradition of steak and potatoes on the living room floor, but since we were in Holden we did it a little different. :-) Our steak and potatoes tradition came from our first year being married, we were so poor and that was the coolest thing in our fridge to eat. To make things more interesting, we decided to make it elegant, but on the floor just for fun. We get so creative with decorating and setting it all up to make it special. We love it! So next year for sure!

J.D. is getting ready to start school again. He's going to finish the 4 beds by the end of this weekend and then school starts monday. He is pretty burned out with school, but this is his last semester to receive his bachelors. We have talked about him getting his masters if he doesn't get into any dental schools this year. He is still waiting to hear back for the dental schools. The masters program is only 1 year here at SUU so it would be do-able, but we will just wait and see.

I am finished with another class as of last night! WHOOHOO! I am starting a new class today and also studying for the Praxis exam. It's about 3 hours and I just hope and pray I pass. It covers Math, Reading, and Writing. I am pretty nervous, but I can only prep and try to be ready. On the side, I am still loving that I can be at home with Dawson.

Dawson is growing up so much! He is getting so smart too! Last night...
Dawson: "Daddy. I want a blanket."
J.D.: "Okay, well go get one then."
Dawson: "NO! You go get it!"
J.D.: laughing, "No, you have 2 legs, you go get it."
Dawson: "No legs. You get it."

Well, this goes on and on, but as you can see he is getting smart. lol! He loves to help me clean the house (yay for that one!). He helps me with all the laundry. He especially loves the rolling part when we roll our top and bottom g's together. He is into dragons, dinosaurs, trains, and cowboy stuff. Dawson absolutely loves to twirl mom's hair when he is tired or just cuddling. It's second nature to him now. :-) He loves milk, mac and cheese, soup (top ramen), apples, and chocolate. Of course he is a little boy and really could care less to eat a full meal...he's a snacker. He really hates nursery...well he hates the idea of mom and dad leaving him alone for 2 hours. I think Dawson has anxiety issues like me with being alone, or having to say goodbye.

history: If you don't know this, I really struggle saying goodbye. I have since I can remember. I remember sunbeams and crying by the door asking for my mom to come back. I would settle down after 20 minutes (yes, I remember specifically how it went because it was so traumatic for me). Saying goodbye while going to school I got used to, but i remember asking if my mom can come to class with me. After knowing my mom couldn't stay, I refused to play with anyone before school (I was in an afternoon class) in fear that my mom wouldn't be there to drop me off. I had to stick to the plan of mom dropping me off and going home. I became way good friends with Brie and Andy there. So, those are the only 2 houses I would go to after school if it wasn't my own. BUT I wouldn't go anywhere else. With dance, my sister taught me so I was okay. This is the sister who raised me (she was 14 and shared a room with me to take care of me at night).

I struggle saying goodbye to family especially. Anytime my brother chad and his wife would leave, I would go hide in my room and cry. I just hate to say goodbye. I cry when I say bye to my dad, J.D., and especially Dawson. I don't want to talk to anyone for a good half hour, and then I start to be okay. It usually takes a couple of days for me to get back into routine.

SOOO, I keep getting this feeling that Dawson is the same way. He really doesn't like to say goodbye. BUT it's hard to deal with it because I feel that if I think this way he will act more upon it...but if he really does struggle with it, I don't want him it to be traumatic like it has been for me. How do you handle it? I try to talk to him about what will be happening for a long time prior to leaving. This helps, he does cry...but it helps a little. Maybe it will help more when as he gets older. What would you do?