12 days til what....??

BAHAMAS!! Our family cruise is coming up sooo soon! J.D. and I have been tanning for 2 reasons, 1-we don't want to burn out there and not enjoy the rest of the cruise. 2- J.D. is definitely hotter when he tan. lol! My sister Jori highlighted my hair today-THANK YOU TO HER! She did an amazing job! She's the only one that has ever colored my hair perfectly every time she's done it. I'm getting everything prepped for Grandma Stevens to watch Dawson... I can't lie, I'm having anxiety attacks about leaving him.

I've only left Dawson for 12 hours-longest, and just once since he came to earth. I'm not one for having people watch my kids because I like knowing what's going on, and my mom taught me to just take my kids with me everywhere and learn to enjoy life with them. So... I'm freaking out. The only thing that helps me is knowing I'm leaving him with his Grandma. She loves to go on walks, be outside, play with him, sing to him, and everytime we go to Holden, she just loves to give him attention. She's raised 7 children and so..she's basically got it handled. Dawson just loves her so much and loves everything she likes to do. She will just spoil him, so that thought is making it easier.

I'm writing down everything there is to know about Dawson and his schedule, eating habits, be prepared for stuff, ideas of calming down that he likes, medication amounts and what he can and can't take, allergies, TV shows/movies he can and can't watch-he's been having nightmares...over some cartoon shows and movies, and a bunch of other stuff...it's probably more for me and Grandma will never look at it, but it makes it easier knowing I left with some input than just dropping him off.

The other fear is parasailing...yes that's the excursion my family is going on ...I'm nervous that a shark will jump up to eat me! Or flying over the ocean and knowing I HAVE to land in the ocean. Sadly, I am scared of water. Especially when you can't see the bottom. Water can kill a person so easily and fast, no air, sharks and other animals that can hurt you....I can't hardly breathe right. I get scared at lakes because I think of all the dead bodies that are in there at the bottom-what if a bone comes up and gets me...stupid, but that's me.

Anyways, I'm counting down in good and bad ways... I'm excited to be on a ship and experience the outskirts of the the USA. A lot of first time stuff is about to happen... WHAAAHOOO!